Black Tar Rivers
Aug. 26th, 2011 03:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
heavenlyxbodiesWent to the p-doc today and spent a good 2-3 hrs crying and hyperventilating. :( I finally calmed down(ish), Pup tried to make me feel better once she realized how freaked out I was, found the snooker tourney on-line so that's distracting me a bit.
Found out my doc is leaving, sorta, he's moving to a different dept type thing, and all his patients are being shuffled off to this new #^$@*$^@()$. I only say that because it's a female. And I know I have at least one female person studying psychiatry on my f-list so pls don't take offence, I'm willing to accept that there are exceptions to the rule. We have a family friend who's a t-doc and I know she's cool. Anyway, female p-doc, yeah, next time just throw me into that night terror I used to have and leave me there. There's a reason that I always request a male doc, p-doc or otherwise. And when it comes to p- and t-docs forget it. Been burnt too often. 14 t-/p-docs 5 male awesome ones, 2 female cool ones, 7 female horrendous ones. The math is not in her favour. And really, someone fucking around with your brain I want someone I can trust and am comfortable with, and I don't care how good she is it's gonna be something you can convince me of in one session.
Bloody doc didn't understand why I was freaking out, I managed not to start crying in front of him at least... seems there's not another doc at the hospital who treats BP. Anyway, bad start to the day. I was so upset and stressed out I almost got into a fight at the pharmacy, too. I didn't, but it was a reallllllllly close call. You know that moment when you can feel the anger boiling and rushing like a river under your skin, throbbing and trying to burst out just right on the edge. *sigh* I beat it back and started crying all the harder when I left. :(
I'll skip the other shit this morning and last night, but... I did finish my crossover fic for![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
merlin_land and a cheesy graphic that, looking at it in the morning or, umm, afternoon, I actually like. Like am kinda proud of and so far I haven't gotten flamed for it, so that's of the good, lol. :)
Now, I must go fry onions for hamburgers and watch my snooker!
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Found out my doc is leaving, sorta, he's moving to a different dept type thing, and all his patients are being shuffled off to this new #^$@*$^@()$. I only say that because it's a female. And I know I have at least one female person studying psychiatry on my f-list so pls don't take offence, I'm willing to accept that there are exceptions to the rule. We have a family friend who's a t-doc and I know she's cool. Anyway, female p-doc, yeah, next time just throw me into that night terror I used to have and leave me there. There's a reason that I always request a male doc, p-doc or otherwise. And when it comes to p- and t-docs forget it. Been burnt too often. 14 t-/p-docs 5 male awesome ones, 2 female cool ones, 7 female horrendous ones. The math is not in her favour. And really, someone fucking around with your brain I want someone I can trust and am comfortable with, and I don't care how good she is it's gonna be something you can convince me of in one session.
Bloody doc didn't understand why I was freaking out, I managed not to start crying in front of him at least... seems there's not another doc at the hospital who treats BP. Anyway, bad start to the day. I was so upset and stressed out I almost got into a fight at the pharmacy, too. I didn't, but it was a reallllllllly close call. You know that moment when you can feel the anger boiling and rushing like a river under your skin, throbbing and trying to burst out just right on the edge. *sigh* I beat it back and started crying all the harder when I left. :(
I'll skip the other shit this morning and last night, but... I did finish my crossover fic for
merlin_land and a cheesy graphic that, looking at it in the morning or, umm, afternoon, I actually like. Like am kinda proud of and so far I haven't gotten flamed for it, so that's of the good, lol. :)Now, I must go fry onions for hamburgers and watch my snooker!
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