Life, the Universe, and SPN Squee
Feb. 5th, 2010 12:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
heavenlyxbodiesToday's episode is viewed through slash coloured glasses.
Okay, this is bad upon bad. Grrrr somebody tell me things are okay, otherwise I'm gonna have to fic it better and I really don't know it I have it in me.
And does Anna pop into the porn dream and Cas into the sedate fishing dream? And why do I always wanna ask if there's any fish in the lake?????????
*shakes head* In the realm of nasty things Cas hasn't mentioned (and honestly, the Anna thing Bible Campthat's one I can't really blame him for... now, the whole breaking Bobby's wards, THAT I can blame Cas for. *wishes Cas would just TELL Dean so I can get the pain over with, lol*
Okay, I feel better already. He told him!!!! *purrs* Oh shut it, let my inner slashgirl squee. :P
*SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL* YES!!!! Cas chose Sammy! And he said 'friend', *purrs* so if he a Sam are friends and barely exchange words, what does that say the eyefucking champions?
*flail* Enochian! *flail* So Enochian is written right to left, does that mean it's spoken backwards, too? (Yes, that was a cracktastic question :P)
Why is it that this is the only show I've EVER watched that can actually make me scream (in the OMGs they hurt Cas/Dean/Sammy kind of way, not the ack I'm scared kinda way) on a semi regular basis?
Btw- AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH, they hurt Cas! *ficficficficficficficficficficficficficficficfic*
Also, woohoo, I can hear the sound of hundreds and thousands of pens scratching and keyboards typing with the glory that is H/C fic. *dances* No, I am not revelling in Cas' pain, but if they hand it to you on a silver platter...
*giggles* Poor Sammy. *pets*
Damn she went all angel on him, wasn't expecting that, figured she'd try for less conspicuous, a simple throat slashing... Anna is messy.
Oh, I love this John, he makes me feel better toward all growed up John. At least we know he thought about what he was/would be doing to his kids at some point in his life. *removes one tick fro the "John is a jackass" tally.
Haha, no wonder Uri hated them so much, lol.
*rollseyes* Gods the boys are being stupid! Like Mary's ever gonna do it any more than they would! 'throws hands in the air* They don't just get the stubbornness from Daddy... oh well if it make them feel better. Now can someone pls gank Anna?
FUCK!
Uh, sorry 'bout that. Just the whole Michael thing, kinda freaked me. Of course, this does support my theory that vessels are actually nephlim.
Hold it, how come John could understand Mikey without his ears exploding? And if John can why can't Dean?I mean, I'm guessing it's something in the blood, as it were, that allows different ppl to be vessels for different angels, like Uri couldn't come down and borrow Jimmy or Claire, since they have the what's'it to be Cas' vessels, and John and their line have the what's'it to be Mikey's vessels so shouldn't he be able to talk to them even if Cas' angelic form can't. For that matter why doesn't Mikey ask Dean to his face, why does he always go through Zach? I'm wondering, not for the first time, if Mikey is even around... he's probably off playing skeeball with God. :P
IF Dean is destined to say yes, then why did Zack pop him into future-of-uber-ickyness, v1, where even when he did say Yes Mikey wasn't listening?
Either, that is a real possible future and Mikey's outright lying OR Zachy-boy was able to fabricate that complex a future scenario (talk about massive drain on the collective angelic mojo) and Mikey's trying to wear down Dean's walls. Either way, it doesn't make much sense, you'd think the bloody dicks, erm, angels would get their shit together and compare notes.
*wibble* I love Cas, and I'll find a way to deal if they make him loose all his mojo, but I will deny it fervently in my happy fic world. Fandom will out! I just had to say that. *nods curtly*
Now for the report you've all been waiting for... the doc gave me new meds! *dances* Lyrica, sounds kinda creepy like some street drug or something, lol, but it's for GAD so it doesn't run the risk of messing with the other mood stabilizers I'm on, and it's reallllllllllllllllllllllllly low on the addictive scale, so, happy.
You wanna hear about the t-doc visit? To bad. I'm all revved up and ready to rant, lol. It's fairly short as my rants go so... Yeah, went to see her still all crouched and scared rabbit like, and I tell her what happened and that I'm having uber issues with the PTSD/anxiety part of the program. And instead of saying something useful or even not useful but supportive she starts with this whole "Let it go" thing. I'm sitting there going (in my head) 'I've been seeing varying forms of therapists since I was 16, and you think NONE of them made with the 'let it go' speech? Hello!?! Been there, done that, next pls.' *head desk* Seriously, wtf, she think this was my first rodeo. If it was THAT easy to deal with I wouldn't have spent almost 15yrs MEDICATED for ANXIETY. Like I told Pup, it was like telling a drowning man to just swim, instead of throwing him a damn rope. Get the bugger on shore, THEN you can give him swimming lessons. Grrrrrrrrr.
Anyway, Pup's gonna try and find out exactly what this t-doc is (you know the initials behind her name) 'cause she's starting to think the t-doc isn't really qualified to be what I need her to be (they have weird breakdowns of the psych ppl here).
There all done with that, now for today's random treat of spam:
A whole 11 seconds, of Dresden audio!spam, just 'cause it makes me smile a cheese eatin' smile, lol.
Oh and on a final happy fandomy note I FINALLY got all the graphics done for my![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif)
dc_fireplace fanmix(es), yeah me! Now to just beat the crap out of Arcana and we can move to the next weirdo fic project, which I only have loosely thought out, but hey, it'll come... eventually, lol.
Okay, this is bad upon bad. Grrrr somebody tell me things are okay, otherwise I'm gonna have to fic it better and I really don't know it I have it in me.
And does Anna pop into the porn dream and Cas into the sedate fishing dream? And why do I always wanna ask if there's any fish in the lake?????????
*shakes head* In the realm of nasty things Cas hasn't mentioned (and honestly, the Anna thing Bible Campthat's one I can't really blame him for... now, the whole breaking Bobby's wards, THAT I can blame Cas for. *wishes Cas would just TELL Dean so I can get the pain over with, lol*
Okay, I feel better already. He told him!!!! *purrs* Oh shut it, let my inner slashgirl squee. :P
*SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL* YES!!!! Cas chose Sammy! And he said 'friend', *purrs* so if he a Sam are friends and barely exchange words, what does that say the eyefucking champions?
*flail* Enochian! *flail* So Enochian is written right to left, does that mean it's spoken backwards, too? (Yes, that was a cracktastic question :P)
Why is it that this is the only show I've EVER watched that can actually make me scream (in the OMGs they hurt Cas/Dean/Sammy kind of way, not the ack I'm scared kinda way) on a semi regular basis?
Btw- AAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH, they hurt Cas! *ficficficficficficficficficficficficficficficfic*
Also, woohoo, I can hear the sound of hundreds and thousands of pens scratching and keyboards typing with the glory that is H/C fic. *dances* No, I am not revelling in Cas' pain, but if they hand it to you on a silver platter...
*giggles* Poor Sammy. *pets*
Damn she went all angel on him, wasn't expecting that, figured she'd try for less conspicuous, a simple throat slashing... Anna is messy.
Oh, I love this John, he makes me feel better toward all growed up John. At least we know he thought about what he was/would be doing to his kids at some point in his life. *removes one tick fro the "John is a jackass" tally.
Haha, no wonder Uri hated them so much, lol.
*rollseyes* Gods the boys are being stupid! Like Mary's ever gonna do it any more than they would! 'throws hands in the air* They don't just get the stubbornness from Daddy... oh well if it make them feel better. Now can someone pls gank Anna?
FUCK!
Uh, sorry 'bout that. Just the whole Michael thing, kinda freaked me. Of course, this does support my theory that vessels are actually nephlim.
Hold it, how come John could understand Mikey without his ears exploding? And if John can why can't Dean?I mean, I'm guessing it's something in the blood, as it were, that allows different ppl to be vessels for different angels, like Uri couldn't come down and borrow Jimmy or Claire, since they have the what's'it to be Cas' vessels, and John and their line have the what's'it to be Mikey's vessels so shouldn't he be able to talk to them even if Cas' angelic form can't. For that matter why doesn't Mikey ask Dean to his face, why does he always go through Zach? I'm wondering, not for the first time, if Mikey is even around... he's probably off playing skeeball with God. :P
***We Interrupt your Regularly Scheduled SPN Squee to Bring You the Following Philosphic Concepts***
Time to wax philosophic for a moment- So I get the whole million things that have to go right for certain events to occur, but, still, just because you stop to check out the Scenic Vista doesn't mean you don't get where you're going, and once you get there you still get to decide what to see and do, right, So just because you will arrive at point D at some point and that point D is a crossroads doesn't that mean you stil have a choice to make? It's kinda like the old Choose Your Own Adventure books, no matter how many times you tried to avoid the train you always would up on it, but once you were there it was a whole other ball of wax.
***We Now Return You to Your Regularly Scheduled Squee***
Time to wax philosophic for a moment- So I get the whole million things that have to go right for certain events to occur, but, still, just because you stop to check out the Scenic Vista doesn't mean you don't get where you're going, and once you get there you still get to decide what to see and do, right, So just because you will arrive at point D at some point and that point D is a crossroads doesn't that mean you stil have a choice to make? It's kinda like the old Choose Your Own Adventure books, no matter how many times you tried to avoid the train you always would up on it, but once you were there it was a whole other ball of wax.
***We Now Return You to Your Regularly Scheduled Squee***
IF Dean is destined to say yes, then why did Zack pop him into future-of-uber-ickyness, v1, where even when he did say Yes Mikey wasn't listening?
Either, that is a real possible future and Mikey's outright lying OR Zachy-boy was able to fabricate that complex a future scenario (talk about massive drain on the collective angelic mojo) and Mikey's trying to wear down Dean's walls. Either way, it doesn't make much sense, you'd think the bloody dicks, erm, angels would get their shit together and compare notes.
*wibble* I love Cas, and I'll find a way to deal if they make him loose all his mojo, but I will deny it fervently in my happy fic world. Fandom will out! I just had to say that. *nods curtly*
Now for the report you've all been waiting for... the doc gave me new meds! *dances* Lyrica, sounds kinda creepy like some street drug or something, lol, but it's for GAD so it doesn't run the risk of messing with the other mood stabilizers I'm on, and it's reallllllllllllllllllllllllly low on the addictive scale, so, happy.
You wanna hear about the t-doc visit? To bad. I'm all revved up and ready to rant, lol. It's fairly short as my rants go so... Yeah, went to see her still all crouched and scared rabbit like, and I tell her what happened and that I'm having uber issues with the PTSD/anxiety part of the program. And instead of saying something useful or even not useful but supportive she starts with this whole "Let it go" thing. I'm sitting there going (in my head) 'I've been seeing varying forms of therapists since I was 16, and you think NONE of them made with the 'let it go' speech? Hello!?! Been there, done that, next pls.' *head desk* Seriously, wtf, she think this was my first rodeo. If it was THAT easy to deal with I wouldn't have spent almost 15yrs MEDICATED for ANXIETY. Like I told Pup, it was like telling a drowning man to just swim, instead of throwing him a damn rope. Get the bugger on shore, THEN you can give him swimming lessons. Grrrrrrrrr.
Anyway, Pup's gonna try and find out exactly what this t-doc is (you know the initials behind her name) 'cause she's starting to think the t-doc isn't really qualified to be what I need her to be (they have weird breakdowns of the psych ppl here).
There all done with that, now for today's random treat of spam:
A whole 11 seconds, of Dresden audio!spam, just 'cause it makes me smile a cheese eatin' smile, lol.
Oh and on a final happy fandomy note I FINALLY got all the graphics done for my
dc_fireplace fanmix(es), yeah me! Now to just beat the crap out of Arcana and we can move to the next weirdo fic project, which I only have loosely thought out, but hey, it'll come... eventually, lol.
