It's time to crash and burn or fly

So, where to start...
Hi, my name is Mys and I'm nuts.
I'm also going through some major self-hateage. Is that the reason I've been so quiet, probably not. That probably has more to do with my head being weird and my spending too much time blurting my randomness on Twitter. Anyway, today we are playing catch-up, sorta, lol.

First off, so far lowering the Seroquel and uppiing the Lyrica seems to be working, I know strange thing to say considering the above statements, but most of that stuff I think has roots in reality and therefore not the Mi's, hence I think the change in cocktail is working nicely. :P We'll see what happens when the doc checks iin tomorrow though... :/
Well, I survived Mom's visit- barely, but that was more the running all over hells' half acre than Mom, so yeah. :) On the not-so-upside, Pup is being all wiggy about Mom's visit and her leaving (don't ask, I'm still trying to sort it).
Got my Dean/Cas Big Bang posted, in and out of the comm, though it's going over rather lukewarmish. :((
Finished a 13k Merlin fic that didn't even involve sex! I think I scared ppl, or possibly scarred them because of the other two, lol. This however is alternately going over surprisingly well and like a lead balloon. I say this because here on LJ total lead balloon I've had over 4000 hits on my fic journal since I posted it and three whole comments wtf?????? But on ffnet it's lacking in reviews but it's soaring in the favourites department, again wtf????
Yeah, really feeling my icon these days, lol.
Let's see, I went off and signed up for not one but TWO Merlin fic exchanges *head desk* on top of already having DCxmas, which my gods what the HELLS were they thinking okay the likes and dislikes I can see but the prompts??? three prompts three squicks, WHAT?!?!?!?! Anyway, I'm taking the good ol' throw the prompts out the window strategy 'cause I don't care I'm NOT writing my squicks, I told them I wouldn't write this shite, so I'm not and it's their bloody fault if they or the giftee has a problem with it! Sorry, it just pisses me off.
I feel weird with my fic atm, I just did Secret Angels so that one's still under wraps, the next is DCxmas, which will be under wraps for however long, the two Merlin comms- again under wraps... it's gonna look like I stopped writing altogether! Only thing that will hopefully come out is Arcana and that's like middle/end of December. Though I do have a vague hint of what might, possibly, eventually grow into a fullfledged idea for a Merlin fic, so we'll see. And my Dean/Cas muses seem to have returned, so that's something. All hope is not lost, yet.

I'm totally jonesing for my SPN and Merlin, I haven't been able to watch either for WEEKS!!!!!!! I'm kinda hoping to do some of that today and maybe it'll make me feel better. I wanna sew some, too, but that means finding a big enough space AND enduring the mocking. And I'm really not up for the mockiing. See this is what I mean, maybe it's just the PMS, but just the thought of that has me crying! *sniffles*

Ah, well, gotta go, dishes to do, ungrateful mouths to feed and at least two separate dinners to make (which they would probably preferred to have had an hour ago). Yes, I am considering changing my name to Merlin. :P

ETA- Oh yeah adding to the Mys feels like shite or maybe shat on, got in one of those loverly lose/lose situations with Pup where I asked her something and then "made her feel stupid and small', this is one of those English vs non-English speaking. It usually comes up when I've been writing a lot so my language changes and I use words or phrases she doesn't know, then when I apologize and try to explain I'm makiing her feel stupid, blah, blah, blah and when I apologize for that... *throws up arms in confusion* This time it was a question and turns out SHE was the one trying to make me feel stupid... *rolls eyes* PMSing Swedes are NOT nice, esp when you're PMSing, too. *sighs and runs back to make sure she didn't burn the chicken*

ETA2- *bounces happily* I got my copy of Keeper of the King Mom ordered for me! *hugs her bordering on cheesy vampire book* Now, I just need to find the third one, Siege Perilous! I haven't read that one yet... what is it with me and vamps and Camelot, it's not like I MEAN too, half the time it's an 'oh, yeah' moment it just HAPPENS. *shakes head and returns to fic cleaning*