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heavenlyxbodies) wrote2010-02-01 08:35 pm
heavenlyxbodies) wrote2010-02-01 08:35 pm
Other than that Mrs. Lincoln...
So, I just got beat up by my step-son! Yeah, me- NOT.
Yeah, times like this I wanna slap my new p-doc for taking my Zoloft away... I tried to tell him and everyone else that it was for the PTSD and anxiety as much as the depression, but... At least this p-doc listens, Pup is gonna call him tomorrow and ask about new drugs.
I guess that didn't make much sense did it.
See, I have these lovely PTSD issues surrounding several YEARS of getting the shit beat outta me on a regular basis by other kids (and we're not going into the PTSD vs ADHD thing right now 'cause that's just too much for my brain to try to explain atm). Now in that totally logical way brain's have of sorting these things, I have an irrational fear of children esp teen and pre-teen ones *shivers* and I have a couple physical trigger spots, yeah the first punch landed squared on one of them... Mys broke into several small shards of Mys- it was not a pretty sight. So yeah I spent the last couple hours in varying states of hysteria, finally starting to calm down, like really truly calm down. Mys arm's still playing silly buggers with me but hells I dealt with that for years this shouldn't kill me.
And just to prove fandom can and does wriggle into EVERY aspect of my life, I decided to sort the caps from High Plains Invaders mindless and soothing type stuff to try to relax and calm down, I mean Jameseses... Jameseses making cute nibbly lip face how can it not calm a person down, then I see the invaders and damn near died. I mean I'm sitting here barely holding myself together and then there's these huge mechanical mosquitoes on my screen. *giggles madly... sounding a little tooooooooo much like her inner Dru for her own sanity*
Totally off topic, Journey is really down with the sex aren't they.
Yeah, times like this I wanna slap my new p-doc for taking my Zoloft away... I tried to tell him and everyone else that it was for the PTSD and anxiety as much as the depression, but... At least this p-doc listens, Pup is gonna call him tomorrow and ask about new drugs.
I guess that didn't make much sense did it.
See, I have these lovely PTSD issues surrounding several YEARS of getting the shit beat outta me on a regular basis by other kids (and we're not going into the PTSD vs ADHD thing right now 'cause that's just too much for my brain to try to explain atm). Now in that totally logical way brain's have of sorting these things, I have an irrational fear of children esp teen and pre-teen ones *shivers* and I have a couple physical trigger spots, yeah the first punch landed squared on one of them... Mys broke into several small shards of Mys- it was not a pretty sight. So yeah I spent the last couple hours in varying states of hysteria, finally starting to calm down, like really truly calm down. Mys arm's still playing silly buggers with me but hells I dealt with that for years this shouldn't kill me.
And just to prove fandom can and does wriggle into EVERY aspect of my life, I decided to sort the caps from High Plains Invaders mindless and soothing type stuff to try to relax and calm down, I mean Jameseses... Jameseses making cute nibbly lip face how can it not calm a person down, then I see the invaders and damn near died. I mean I'm sitting here barely holding myself together and then there's these huge mechanical mosquitoes on my screen. *giggles madly... sounding a little tooooooooo much like her inner Dru for her own sanity*
Totally off topic, Journey is really down with the sex aren't they.
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