Aww, my poor sweetie! Sorry about the PTSD and what it came from. I do feel some of what you're talking about (my brother beat the sh*# out of me for 8 years since mom wasn't strong enough to stop him), so if you turned out as well as you did, you should feel proud of yourself!!!! I think having crap like that in your past will always result in having an inner Dru! Mine giggles like mad at the most inappropriate times and over extremely inappropriate things. It's all good! Hope you're arm feels better soon, darling. Sending virtual hugs and kisses!